Theirs not a day that I don't hurt, for my broken life.
My broken heart aches, I get burnt and stabbed in the back by knife.
I'm a mum of five, four taken from me.
This life I live, at times I wish to flee.
For them I live, for them I fight.
I won't forgive, I know what's right.
The love of my life, got himself into strife.
He and one other, mugged a man with a knife.
The other got nothing, but my man 18months.
Left us all suffering, so far it's been 14months.
Christmas, New Years, Valentines, kids birthdays, the birth of our youngest son,
he's missed it all with more to come.
Our relationship has been stretched to it's outer limits,
as time passes only looking forward to our Friday visits.
I try to keep busy one day at a time,
with that and maybe some good luck I’ll be just fine.
But tonight I’m really down,
my smile a frown.
It doesn't take very much for me to shed my tears,
I have many worries and many more fears.
I know you love me,
This afternoon you phoned me.
I don't understand why you get so mad,
You could have dealt with it better, instead you made me sad.
Another burn only small adds to a already aching heart,
I'm no angel, but being nice is a start.
I know I’m strong and every hard thing makes me,
with you I belong and nothing will ever break me.
So now it's late and I’m thinking about you,
my best mate my baby having you on my mind is nothing new.
Neither are all the times that I worry about you.
This time it's for whatever reason you wanted to speak with me,
I'm hoping that your ok, And can't wait till you next phone me.
Good morning beautiful child of God. Know that you are not alone. Jesus loves you just as you are. I have had a troubled life all my life unitl Jesus Christ found me in 2005. I use to be a control freak searching for love and in between that worrying obessively about my duties as a mom. I was abandoned by my birth father which brough on a lot of fears and insecurities, but with GOD all things are possible.
ReplyDeleteYou have a beautiful family and I pray that you have a great support group. We have a young mom at our Church and she has 5 very active kids. We, as a Church family try to take turns doing stuff with the kids. Reading your e-mail has reminded me that I need to take the kids out again.
Remember to find quiet moments for yourself even if it's a bubble bath. Journal abut your experience and find scriptures in the Bible that speak to your spirit.
You, your husband and children are here by God's grace and purpose. He will never leave you and He is always available when you call on Him.
Looking forward to getting to know you. Thank you for stopping by my blog, now I have a another blog sister to add to my prayer list.
sent w/love
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